Ch-ch-ch-changes!
As you may have noticed, it’s been quite a while since my last post. A lot has happened on a global and personal level over the course of the last three months. I have found a lot to be hugely thankful for and have made huge decisions about the direction I will be moving in from now. I look forward to catching you up on some of these and as always, I hope to bring some positivity and inspiration through my blog. And I look forward to catching up on how all the people I follow here on WordPress have been doing while I was gone!
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I came back to Ireland at the end of August after a fantastic trip to Iceland. It is such a beautiful country whose vast spaces in stunning nature inspires profound reflection.
My trip there brought up many questions for me- the main gist from all of them being:
“How am I really doing?”
This question required a lot of thought, journalling, tapping (EFT), emotional releases and meditation to be truthfully and deeply considered.
I had to allow myself to be vulnerable, to go within and ask many difficult questions, to let go of the notion that I ‘had’ to post, that I ‘had’ to respond to every email, that I ‘had’ to be present for others when it required all my energy to even attempt to be present for myself.
My intended theme for September’s postings had been Balance. Instead of blogging, I reflected on the theme of Balance for myself and my life. I realised that my energies were not being dispersed in a balanced way. I realised I needed a true break from everyone in the 3D and virtual world.
This was scary at first. I had created the idea in my head that I didn’t need lots of reflection time anymore because I had such a focus on well-being in my daily life. And to say that I did need that would somehow be ‘fail’. An idea that in Truth is completely ridiculous to me and if any of my clients, friends or family had said that to me, I would have immediately reminded them:
We all need time to ourselves. Our energy for others moves in ebb and flow. Sometimes we are comfortable being out and shining and have endless energy to give, and sometimes we need to go quiet and rest and reflect. This is just part of living a human life.
At first, I inwardly battled and tried to make myself write and to keep social meet-ups etc. But thankfully, after only a couple of days- which is a HUGE improvement from my past!- I clicked out of my ego drives and realised I needed to allow myself to let go of all activities that weren’t absolutely necessary until I had the energy for more.
Like for the world at large, there have been many challenging situations, much learning and huge growth for me over the past few months.
I have had to let go of some ideas I was unknowingly holding to about who I am/who I am meant to be. I have had to seek support from others. I have looked at where I am dispersing my energies through fear. I have been honest about where I am not being true to myself. I have adjusted my thinking many times. I have started a new daily routine. I have once again grown and changed and I am so grateful that I allowed it to happen, being in the flow of change regardless if I was feeling it as an up or a down at the time. Underneath any emotion, I still felt my centre. I still felt capable and strong- even when feeling weak and unable. This is the beauty of knowing your worth. It is the beauty of having faith in yourself and the universal order. It is the beauty of accepting yourself in all your glorious strengths and glorious weaknesses.
And so here I am, three months on and once again feeling re-born and ready for more of the new. And above all feeling immense gratitude that I get to be Laura, living my life on this beautiful planet, where yes, things that are against life take place but things of huge beauty, love, light and grace also take place in every single moment: That breath you just took. The smile you received from a stranger when going about your day. The connections we make and community we are part of. The beauty that is the ability to say “I was here, and I LIVED”.
These are the concepts we need to hold to, especially at this time of global upheaval. The hate, the fear, the judgment and the separation that the media and human ‘powers that be’ are encouraging us to hold onto, are concepts that we don’t have to make part of our world. We can each choose a different path. We can choose to see through their lies and agendas. We can choose love, compassion, unity and grace. We each have great power and united we can be a force for great and loving change.
“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him….we need not wait to see what others do”
Gandhi
Ask yourself questions-
Are your beliefs yours or are they fed to you by society?
Who are you when there is no society to reflect back a judgment on your answer?
‘Common sense is actually nothing more than a deposit of prejudices laid down in the mind prior to the age of eighteen’
Albert Einstein
What do you want your life to look like?
Who are you in the here and now?
Go with the flow of change, allowing yourself to grow and morph and let go of old ideas. Allow your world to be full of light, even when everyone is telling you it’s dark. Be the light for yourself and for those around you. As I have said here numerous times, the answer may not always be easy but it is simple.
With love and light,
Laura.x
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Youtube clip of David Bowie’s Changes taken from Chaine de pooxjean’s page:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfxS7vntAotYj_2nG3xFY9w
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Failte ar ais, Laura. I am sure your journey to Iceland and the long electronic break have truly rejuvenated your spirits even though you were fondly missed all the while. The same fondness it is that makes me happy at the prospect of seeing your new offerings tempered by contemplative retreat into the silence of inner self. The external world is a product of our innermost thoughts, which rings in Gandhi’s exhortation to ‘be the change you want to see’. Be well…best wishes…xx.
Go raibh míle maith agat Raj! So lovely to be in touch again. I am really looking forward to catching up on your blog posts over the next few days. I hope all is wonderful in your world. Much love and hugs, Laura.x
Good to hear you’re taking care of yourself.
Thanks Jay! Hope all is great with you 🙂
Very nice to meet you!
You too! Your recipes look insanely delicious, I look forward to browsing and attempting some! 🙂
Thanks laura, I will be following you